Dilemmas of a Cancer Indian Trapped in the City

What a wonderful week this one has been. I did not so bad on my midterms, NBA started, got my tatty done, and had another calm week. This school shit is starting to become more reachable with each day that past. I kind of self-doubt myself sometimes because I see other peoples study ethic and me I am just chillen. I haven’t really fret too much about things. I wish I had that ability to just hit the books and read. I see my little brother do it. I am like ahh fuck this I need to take a bath. Then study for a bit. The courses I am in this year are more about memorization towards things. I got a C on accounting midterm and a B+ on my Economics midterm. How I got a B+ in Econ is still puzzling to me. Guess it was that one day I hit the books hard one night. I should do that more often…. I am a walking contradiction of my own thoughts…

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The NBA is fucken real, how real? So real that the Lakers have to pay a 90 million dollar luxury tax and they don’t even give a fuck about it. You know why? Because they signed  2 Billion dollar T.V. deal that will last 20 years. Yeah shit is real. High ass grossing fucken NBA players. Bron got his ring, Lakers still ain’t won, and the Raptors look like a decent team this year. They just need themselves better play execution down the stretch then they’ll be alright. 

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I got my tattoo finally. That bitch hurt, the last hour was one of the most annoying fucken feelings in the world. The outline was all good. The fucken coloring tho… OH EM GIZZLE. My chest was rawer than a baby’s ass who has the runs. Shit was tender as fuck. I just had to tough it out tho. You know what it was worth it. Feels nice to see my heart Covered up with the Heir to thrones names on it. He enjoyed it. Liked the colors, thought it was nice quote. I don’t think he understand the saying though, I’ll explain when he’s older. 

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I think the only negative thing that has come out of this week is that I may not be able to go to Mexico this winter. My baby mom won’t let my son go for 7 days and it is hard to find places that are decent price or offer 5 day stays. It’s like 4 days for 2700 or 7 days for 2200. Go figure right. For some reason she wants him home on the Thursday the 20th. You see, if I could go 14th-21. Friday to Friday, I would be cool and he would be back in time for his birthday party on the Saturday. Makes sense right? But sometimes logic is not found in the common person. PREACH. So I will just hold that money and if opportunity points in my direction then I’ll take that route. For now though, it’s just on hold…

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I need to go see a dentist for this fucken tooth, shit is hurting like a mufucka. Tomorrow I will go find one. Meek Mill album is okay. Kendrick’s is better though. That’s in my opinion, and we all got an opinion now thanks to the internet. 

Lastly I would like to thank Creator for every blessing I receive because I know some people are not as fortunate as me. I pray for them, It’s a cold winter, so I ask for them find shelter and food. Life is tough, tough as fuck. But I learned about this thing in school from a former student he talked about the “10,000 hour” rule. Basically it states that if you wanna be great at something you have to put 10,000 hours into it. Basically grind the fuck out and perfect your craft. Whatever it is. You just do it. Self-motivation is all you need. I also learned that sometimes it is better to keep goals to yourself because if you decide you’re gonna do something and tell someone what you’re gonna do, you are less likely to do it. The brain lets off some trigger that makes you think you have actually accomplished something when really you’ve done nothing but tell someone. Remember that. It could be useful for you in your future. I know I am keeping my 10,000 grind alive and keeping my goals quiet... Well I share a little bit with yall… Bless